"I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between."
Aesthetic beauty is sought after because it takes the appearance of something genuine and meaningful. It takes time to realize that beauty without substance is meaningless, which is true in both life and art. When art is done right it is more than just something aesthetically appealing, it must clearly reflect a truth about reality.
As a child, when I would lie in bed at night and close my eyes to try to sleep, I would imagine death as a sea of darkness, lonely and infinite. It made me sad to think about, to picture this inescapable fate that awaited me and everyone else, but also endlessly curious about the true nature of life and death, of where I came from and where I was going.
The absence of this same kind of curiosity in others confused me. How could everyone so easily and passively accept the lack of an explanation for what the world is and who we are? Why don’t other people burn with a desire to understand?
"When I consider this carefully, I find not a single property which with certainty separates the waking state from the dream. How can you be certain that your whole life is not a dream?"